Lakshima Devi does not remember the date it happened, but she has a vivid memory of that winter night. “The wheat crop was just above the ankle” when her water broke and she went into labour. “It must have been December or January [2018/19],” she says.
Her family had hired a tempo to take her to the primary health centre in Baragaon block. The PHC is about six kilometres from their village, Ashwari, in Uttar Pradesh’s Varanasi district. “I was in a lot of pain when we reached the PHC,” recollects Lakshima, 30. Her three older children, Renu, Raju and Resham, between 5 and 11 years old now, were at home. “The hospital person [staff] refused to admit me. He said I wasn’t pregnant, and the bump on my stomach was due to an illness.”
Lakshima’s mother-in-law, Hiramani, implored the staff to admit her, but the PHC staff refused. Finally, Hiramani told them she would help Lakshima have the baby right there. “My husband was looking for an auto to shift me elsewhere,” says Lakshima. “But I was too weak to move by then. I sat right outside the PHC, under a tree.”
Hiramani, in her 60s, sat beside Lakshima, holding her hand and guiding her to take deep breaths. About an hour later, closer to midnight, she gave birth. It was pitch dark and freezing cold, Lakshima remembers.








